KikuElric

I'm sorry, I really don't make a lot of art anymore

I am so tired of never being alone.
I am tired of constantly being surrounded by people.
I am tired of babies crying & screaming and of toddlers constantly asking questions.
I am tired of never being allowed on the computer without feeling like someone is judging what I am doing.
I am tire of hiding in my room because it's my only safe heaven.
I'd like some peace and quiet. I'd like to be able to enjoy myself at home for once since the middle of summer when my brother moved back in.
I'm tired of hearing that things are my fault.
I'm tired of hearing the fighting between everyone.
The only time I can get away is at my boyfriend's and at school. And half the time I feel like I'm imposing at both places.

I want to drive and get away from the hell hole I call home.

I honestly keep on expecting things to suddenly just go horribly wrong because of the fact that too many good things are happening...
Why am I so paranoid???
It's like I just can't accept happiness.
Like my mind is refusing to.

:/

Ughughugh, I miss my boyfriend ><
Stayed home sick from school today, now I gotta catch up on work d:

I have reports and paragraphs to write in half my classes and homework in almost all of them. Even art.

*sigh* If this keeps up I'm gonna die.....

Guys. I have a boyfriend.
Since when does this happen????
Lololol, he's adorable :3


Blah, I've been slacking on my photography, sorry. I just never have the time. I'm either sleeping, with my friends, or cannot edit the picture to the point that I like it. I need a new photo editing software but Photoshop is SOOOO expensive :[